I could possibly attribute it to a ton of different reasons, but the crux of the matter is just that I feel so incredibly lost.
Whether it’s because of transitioning, screwing up, Pinkie leaving in a month, or not meeting my own expectations, I honestly am not too sure. All I know is that I am feeling overwhelmed with everything.
This morning was just a really, really bad morning at school.
I hate it when things are impersonal and cold, but perhaps that really is me screwing up.
Lessons have been rather fun, don’t get me wrong. I like that I am learning new things, and I still really do want to do this. It’s just that it sucks having to deal with expectations of myself.. and with how I am feeling when I don’t meet up to them.
Book-binding class this week was the most fun I had since lessons started a couple of weeks back. Hmm.
I wish things didn’t bother me as much as they do. I also wish I didn’t make stupid mistakes – I’m so annoyed and angry with myself, you wouldn’t know.
i like this!
