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∆ Thursday, May 14th 2009 @ 4:36 pm
∆ categoried: Contemplation, Crybaby, PinkPolarBear, Rant!, boysaresmelly
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After being done with being upset last night (and the night before etc etc), I began to start getting annoyed with myself. Really, really quite annoyed.

Am I really this useless on my own??


Getting upset with the distance repeatedly is pissing myself off – can’t I just deal with 10,000km already?! For goodness sake, it’s been practically 2 years. Lol, I don’t quite know what to do anymore.

SO WHAT if I only see my boyfriend for 3 or 4 months out of the 12 months there are in a year?
SO WHAT if I’m a quality time person and finds that immensely lacking?
SO WHAT if all this makes it hard to feel encouraged and motivated?

GET OVER IT.
This is flipping lame and I don’t want to talk about it anymore.

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NO, I DON’T WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND!!!!!!

∆ Wednesday, March 11th 2009 @ 6:49 pm
∆ categoried: PinkPolarBear, Rant!, boysaresmelly, carousel, snapshots
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Cat ass, yo.

It’s strange how life always seems to fall into place after periods when things go awry. Although so many things in the future are uncertain right now, I feel quite peaceful. :)

His peace that transcends understanding, huh?

The Bangkok trip that’s taking place this Sunday was completely unexpected, and I’m of course very very grateful for it. To run away to another country even for a few days makes me happy, heh.

On a sidenote, CAN YOU IDIOTS STOP ADDING ME ON FACEBOOK IF YOU DON’T KNOW ME? Gawd. It is annoying as hell! The very least you can do is drop me a message to say Hi. Not that it’d make me add you back, because I hardly add people I don’t know.

In the rare instances it happens, it’s usually because of one or more of the following reasons:
1) I was in a good mood
2) You messaged and managed to hold a proper conversation that DOES NOT include the words “can”, “we”, “be” or “friends”
3) You seem interesting to get to know

If I bother to reply your stupid friend request asking if I know you, it is either because a) YOU ANNOY ME TERRIBLY AND I WANT TO SNAP AT YOU, b) I really am not sure if I know you or c) your profile seems SOMEWHAT interesting.

Some of the replies I get when I drop a message to ask if I know them ASTOUND ME. How is going, “nope” or “err, no” or “oh no i dun noe you” HELPING ANY ONE ON THIS EARTH?????

It annoys me and makes you look like an idiot.

GO AWAY!!!! Grrrrr.

*pause*

Erm. I’m not very sure how this post turned out to be this ranty. Haha! Probably has everything to do with the “OH NO I DUN NOE YOU” that appeared in my inbox as I was typing. Oops.

Why, oh why are so little people capable of making good conversation?
By good conversation I don’t necessarily mean deep and thought-provoking all the time. Good conversation is simply engaging to both parties involved in it. Sheesh.

I wish I could run away to where you are, just for hugs and your presence. :(


Meow Meow (the stray who wanders around the office’s neighbourhood) is awesome –
she follows us when we call her and then proceeds to be manja, rubbing her face and body against out legs.
So cuuuute!

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Protected: good morning, world.

∆ Monday, February 9th 2009 @ 2:21 pm
∆ categoried: Crybaby, Daffodil Fields!, PinkPolarBear, Rant!, boysaresmelly
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Of utmost speechlessness

∆ Wednesday, December 17th 2008 @ 12:27 pm
∆ categoried: Fuzzies, LOL, Rant!, boysaresmelly
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These don’t make sense because despite what it looks like, NO, HANA AND NADIA ARE NOT FIGHTING WITH EACH OTHER:


2 comments blurred out because they have absolutely nothing to do with this.

WONDERING WHY my friends sound mad in a conversation that seemingly doesn’t make sense??

Say hi to answers:

TADAHHHH!!! MYSTERY OF THE MISSING PIECES.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Of course, if you hop by my Facebook profile now, this is all you’ll see:

:)

I really wasn’t annoyed til pieces went missing. How utterly convenient huh? I can already imagine responses!
- decided to end the fighting
- wanted to be the bigger person in all this
- it’s over, i said sorry so removed them all

Heh.

I am speeechless. ARE YOU?

Hahahahahahahhahaha.

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Shoo fly, don’t bother me.

∆ Tuesday, November 11th 2008 @ 11:03 am
∆ categoried: Rant!, boysaresmelly
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Hello, taboo topic.

But here goes anyway, because I’ve just about had enough.

What’s up with stupid boys’ egos?

Like shut up already; I don’t owe you anything to have to feed your ego all day long.

What’s with the insecurity AND the ego?!
Oh wait. On hindsight, I suppose they go together hand-in-hand.

Why the constant need for validation from everyone? Grow up, for goodness’ sake. I’m sick and tired of trying to sound politically correct when all I want is to tell you to grow up.

After tolerating the whining and bitching (read: making a hell lot of noise) over some stuff for the past couple of weeks, I snapped today because guess what – I can’t take your nonsense anymore.
The past weeks have been of separate and different issues of course, so I shan’t bother.

I don’t normally do this, but I think sometimes people are just asking for it and bloody deserve to get told off right in their faces.

Now…… I need to get over feeling bad, hahaha.

WHY THE HELL DO I BOTHER??????????????????? Ugh.

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When I find you it will be alright.

∆ Sunday, October 5th 2008 @ 4:08 am
∆ categoried: Crybaby, PinkPolarBear, Random bursts, boysaresmelly, veedeeohs
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So c’mon, pick up an acoustic guitar and sing.
Sing to me, sing to me.
Sing, just keep strummin’ & singing.

Sing.. Just sing, sing all these away……

Just like that, pick up an acoustic guitar, strum a lil and sing…

You’re the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I’m singin’

You’re the missing piece I need
The song inside of me

You’re the remedy I’m searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright

Just make things okay again, make my world bright once more.

Please…?

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Edit:-

So with tears running down my face and my breath coming in shorter and shorter breaths, I don’t know what I’m doing.

I’m trying, okay, I’m really trying. Trying to be okay, to be alright, trying hard to be as understanding as I possibly can. I don’t even know if that’s enough anymore.

Honestly, I HATE the distance, I hate the differences in time, I hate the busy-ness.

And with my vision completely blurred by the tears, with my nose stuffed from the flu and crying, with the stupid squeezes my heart keeps doing…

I’ll
keep
trying.

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schmelly boys.

∆ Friday, October 3rd 2008 @ 4:46 pm
∆ categoried: Crybaby, Fuzzies, Rant!, boysaresmelly
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Dear Super Hammy,

Let’s run away.

Far far away.

Elope.

Ooh, let’s get married!

Dump everyone else.

All the crap that’s here.

And head off.

Far far away.

Where no evil people are.

No smelly boys.

Only happy rainbows.

And cute lollipops.

Let’s go!

Love,
jojo Fuzzy Ellie

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Throw rocks at them!!!

∆ Friday, September 19th 2008 @ 10:43 pm
∆ categoried: PinkPolarBear, Rant!, The Family, boysaresmelly, farm-mee-li, whineeeee
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WHY MUST GIRLS HAVE CRAMPS!?!?!?!

It’s damn fricking painful!! Lying down isn’t helping, OMG.

Stupid boys. I hate boys. Boys are smelly. Why don’t they have cramps huh huh huh. Hmpf.

HMPF!!!!!!!!

Now I can’t go to Sentosa next Tuesday because I will still be bleeding. *sulk* TMI, but I don’t care.

ROAAAARRRRR!!!!!!!!

So in the coming days I have… lunch with my family + dad’s friend / mum’s company’s family day @ singapore flyer / DG / day with LeeTeng / Wanwan’s 21st birthday party.

I want lazy daysssss. No one’s free. Bleh.

Oh, and did you hear? Poor Skip caught a cold cos Pinkie forgot to close the windows one night! :(

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Kaboooom

∆ Saturday, May 31st 2008 @ 10:32 pm
∆ categoried: Contemplation, PinkPolarBear, Rant!, The Family, Work, boysaresmelly
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Incredibly frustrated and stressed with retreat planning stuff. They’re interlinked, the 2 emotions.

Not so much of the planning of events itself, but managing between well, ______.
It’s okay, I know that God’s just using this to train us and reveal things and teach us more things, and to help us grow. As always with being in a committee planning a church camp, the learning point far exceeds the task at hand.

I love being trained under Pam for the past years, at how to arrange and organise events.. Such that your objective is met, and your people are taken care of.
How to be people-oriented, and not task-oriented. How it’s possible to take care of people and get things done at the same time. And how important being people-oriented is in the Church, and how it can be brought to the marketplace not just for your benefit, but also for the benefit of growing God’s kingdom. After all, you spend more time in your marketplace (school/workplace) than in church, so why shouldn’t you bring God and church to the world?

Attended Weilin’s wedding this morning. Okay fine, it started at 12noon but it sure felt like morning! Haha. Nice and simple. Ling was hilarious with the many helium balloons. So was Sam! Haha.

I love attending weddings.
They’re definitely thought-provoking. It really goes beyond the surface, beyond the wedding itself.
I think lil girls grow up with the notion of wanting the perfect wedding, but as you grow up, please don’t mistake your wedding for your marriage. They’re two different things, one far more important than the other.

On another random sidenote, I love personalised wedding vows & I think it’s anti-climax when the groom kisses the bride on the cheeks when you know, he’s asked to kiss the bride. (No, it didn’t happen at this wedding! Just a random thought haha.)

Photos another day, when I get unlazy and upload the ten thousand photos (and videos of Ling!!!!) from my camera. I hate my hair these days.

Went out with Pam, Leonard, Ling and Sam after that. I love pretty places that make me forget for a moment that I’m in Singapore, silly fast-paced city.
I wish things could slow down for a bit.

Next week’s long and busy…
And then I look at the entire June, and I realise it’s long and busy too. SIGH.
Can I have a proper break soon, please? I want endless days of doing nothing, rotting away. Haha. Just for a lil while…

This week has been a crazy-assed emotional rollercoaster, honestly. From the super super super good, to the downright horrid. I’M SO TIRED.

Goodbye, goodbye.
I will miss you but for now, I am happy to go. Haha.

I can’t wait for Monday.
For those of you who don’t already know, await a happy post! HAHA.

My parents bought a packet of noodles for me just now. On top of the deep-fried wantons that they ordered because I guess, they know I love them, the original packet of noodles came with a whopping ELEVEN wantons. CRAZY.

Ok, off to remove makeup and sit around idling away waiting for phone calls.

Sigh, I need a hug.

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How’s your day?

∆ Wednesday, May 28th 2008 @ 2:33 pm
∆ categoried: LOL, Rant!, The Family, boysaresmelly, farm-mee-li
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That’s actually one of my favourite questions to be asked. It’s subjective, really. Because it makes a WHOLE lot of difference who asks me that.

Ling had one fantastic retort to that question when asked by the irritating.

“My day is ruined by people like you.”

HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Well done, Ling! I agree one hundred percent! Hahaha!

For the sake of humanity, can you please just go jump off a cliff and make the world a better place? Tsk.

Speaking of retorts, I went for dinner at my cute Ah Kong’s place last night because it was his actual birthday, and I was an hour late because I was rushing for things at work. Arrived looking a lil dazed and frazzled also because I’d rushed out of house, all in all feeling sick and ugly.

My granduncle, Uncle Terry, who amuses me to no end because he’s HILARIOUS, exclaimed when he saw me – “You look like Jessica Alba!”

So I snorted, “YA I WISH.”

Hahahahaha. Photo updates when I get un-lazy.

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Monkeys.

∆ Wednesday, May 14th 2008 @ 9:09 pm
∆ categoried: Contemplation, PinkPolarBear, boysaresmelly, dear God
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Why do people tend to carry so much baggage and weight with them?
And then proceed to dump them around.

It’s sad, how jaded and discontented so many people are. I suppose that’s when the importance of being childlike comes in. Childlike, not childish. There’s a difference, people.

Over the past few months, each time I wonder.. even if for the slightest moment, whether or not I actually ask God about it, He keeps sending reminders about how I cannot take bitterness.

First He used one instance to remind me that I can’t handle bitterness.
After making me damn sure that I can’t, and that I don’t want to, today He revealed and reminded so quickly that I was caught off guard.

Not just bitterness, I think, because perhaps that is circumstantial.
It’s also the unwillingness to let God take full control of one’s life. More and more, He shows me clearly what I want, and how important spiritual maturity is in someone, and how much that matters to me.

And this is why, this is why.. I’m so grateful for you, you who is more positive and spiritually mature than you realise yourself. You who is surely, surely a Godsend. More than grateful, really.

If you haven’t already realised, spiritual maturity has nothing to do with how long you’ve been a child of God.
It’s how much you let Him take control of your life, how much you want to chase after Him, how open you are to hear Him and most of all, how obedient you are to Him.

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I like God’s reminders.
Because each time He reminds me, it reassures me that I’m not wrong in this. :]

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