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  • scissors
    Sunday, February 7th 2010 @ 12:40 amcomments »
    categorised: LASALLEEE, Rant!, farm-mee-li

    *#!*&^#*&@

    OH MY GOD.

    I finally finished redoing my stupid papercut poster thing for school because the first time I did it, it wasn’t cut very well..

    AND THEN…. A PIECE OF MASKING TAPE RIPPED IT.

    ARGH WHAT THE HELL LA. I am so pissed.

    Hours of work wasted, and now I have to redo with time supposed to be spent on other pieces of work.

    RAR!!!!!!!!!

    Is this that hard to understand?!?!?!?! I don’t think it’s unreasonable to be upset over this, seeing as how it JUST happened. Whatever.

    No patience to deal with everything else. ARGH.

    Also, I slipped and fell at home today because the floor was wet, and now the ankle which I’d sprained badly before still hurts and feels wonky.

    That was right after my mum MADE A FACE when I told her about my new upcoming project at school. I only told her because I was excited about it. THANKS MUM.

    Sometimes I really don’t know why I bother with so many people and things in my life. ARGH. Days like this I just want to sit in my own corner of the world and not bother with anyone.

    WHAT A GRUMPY SATURDAY. *sulk*

  • scissors
    Friday, February 5th 2010 @ 3:13 amcomments »
    categorised: Crybaby, Random bursts, Rant!, farm-mee-li

    my mum got warded into the hospital a couple of hours ago. she’s been having chest pains for awhile and my dad finally managed to get her to go to the hospital to get it checked.

    she’s spending the night there, and I think we’ll know tomorrow morning if she can be discharged.

    hospitals are depressing.

    what’s strange is that that wasn’t what made me cry, or go to bed with a heavy heart tonight.

    things seem to keep adding up to a big fat zero, no matter what I attempt to do. no wonder my maths fail. haaaaaa.

    I wonder how much longer i have before it eats me up.

    things keep falling apart over and over recently, and I hate that it repeatedly feels like there’s no form of support.

    guess what they say about emotional bank accounts might be true afterall. deficit is teh sucks.

    yea ok.
    yea yea yea ok.

  • scissors
    Saturday, January 23rd 2010 @ 4:02 pmcomments »
    categorised: Contemplation, Crybaby, Random bursts, farm-mee-li, rumpledoodles.com

    After an entire week of crying every night and feeling helpless and upset, of sleeping pills (mild ones – don’t have a heart attack please. it’s way better for me to sleep than to be up crying!) and of lovely friends, I think I can now safely say that I am feeling a whole lot better and ready to take on what comes next.

    It hasn’t been an easy week dealing with everything that is happening, but it’s slowly coming under control somehow. I was finally able to talk things out and get most of the mush in my head sorted out, so that’s good. I’ve a feeling next week will be better!

    I wouldn’t have been able to do this without the lovely people around me, who’ve been insanely nice and caring. <3

    Also, I was blessed with the gift of Flickr Pro!!!!!! It was from someone I don’t know, and it was all a pleasant surprise that came at the right time. It was a token of support for my Project 52, because he likes my photos and that just really touched me – I was really encouraged by the simple gesture. Hee hee. Thank you!!!

    Today and tomorrow have been set aside for me to catch up on the work I was unable to do this week, but despite being up for about 3 hours now, I feel the attack of the naps coming! Zzzz…

    That aside, someone did a search for my name multiple times and found this blog, so hello who are you why are you so freaky can’t you just say hi? Pshhh.

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    Tuesday, January 19th 2010 @ 1:03 amcomments »
    categorised: Crybaby, PinkPolarBear, farm-mee-li

    It isn’t Valentine’s Day when couples flood the streets, all happy and smiling with each other.
    It also isn’t during my birthday, even though I love birthdays and would love to be able to celebrate it with me.

    It isn’t even during Christmas-time, my favourite time of year, when I wish with all my heart that we can share it together for the first time.

    It’s times like this, when my world seems to be falling apart around me in the slowest of motions and there is absolutely nothing I can do to prevent it or stop the pieces from shattering on the ground.

    It isn’t about having someone to tell me what to do, to give me advice or even to talk.. I may not know everything I have to do; I have some semblance of inkling as to where to go on from here.. so that really isn’t the point, or the suckiest bit of all this.

    It’s about seeing my dad look so incredibly tired, disheveled and so so unhappy with that broken look in his eyes, and feeling completely helpless.. It’s when I know this is beyond me and what I can do, but it’s just dealing with the emotions left behind and trying to be okay.

    It’s times like this, when all I want is your presence next to me, to just hold me and let me know it’s okay, that you’re here, that you’re holding my hand through all this.

    I don’t need answers, I don’t need solutions… All I need is your simple presence here, because it gives me strength.

    And this, is when LDRs suck the most.

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    Thursday, September 10th 2009 @ 12:12 amcomments »
    categorised: I'M HUNGRY!!!, LASALLEEE, PinkPolarBear, farm-mee-li, ree-vews, rumpledoodles.com

    I added a plugin that lets you Like my posts, just like in Facebook! Haha! Unfortunately, you can’t dislike my posts. MUAHAHAHA!!

    My brother popped out today! ERR, he POPed lah! We had a really yummy dinner just now, with my parents and Pinkie! Yesss, he’s feeling better today – YAYNESS! Stewed pork belly is LOVE!

    It’s 12:02am. Before 11pm, I told myself I’d start on work at 11. *guilty face*

    I’m sooo tired from school, and everything else. Desperately need more sleep, but some days, doing work and making time to meet Pinkie is just more important than that. O well.

    My photography project is stressing me out big time.. grar! Gonna take photos on Friday with Pinkie. I reaaallly hope they turn out good. =(
    AND THEN WE’RE HAVING LUNCH AT LAWRY’S!!!!!! Hehe. Have never eaten there before, and neither has he. We’re going because his friend Alex gave him a voucher for his birthday. Hello, cows.

    Y’know, I think value for money is tons more important than the quality of your food. Or reputation.
    Morton’s was disappointing. I don’t think it’s because the food sucks, because my steak was quite nice really. Can’t say the same for Pinkie’s but let’s just talk about mine. I got a tenderloin, which was really quite good. The problem was that it was something like $70 or $80 bucks! Now, you see, if the steak had been mind-blowingly good, I wouldn’t think paying 70 bucks for a piece of meat is insane.. but it wasn’t! It was good, just not THAT good.

    If I had a $20 steak at Aston’s, I’d probably be happier because it’s much better value for money there. I wish Saraceno had a more consistent quality of food. I went there a couple of months back because of the rave reviews my ex colleagues had of the place, and also knowing that it was opened by 2 chefs who had trained under Gordon Ramsey for a couple of years.

    The appetizers were really, really good. Their parma ham is completely amazing! We both ordered steaks for our mains because of good reviews from friends as well as online, but it was honestly just really disappointing. Mine was overdone, and they re-fired it, along with Pinkie’s because it just isn’t good manners leaving him eating while I stare into space. When mine came back, it was better but his was too overdone. We were too hungry by then to ask for yet another change. The food there is good, to be honest.. It’s just the inconsistency that annoys the hell out of me. The mash that came with the steak was DAMN good, though. Oh, and service there is really immaculate as well.

    I think Da Paolo’s has awesome value for money! Good service with nice food and a comfortable ambience at the Holland Village branch. I WANT MORE RISOTTO! Also love their pasta like mad. The king prawn one is DAMN FRICKING GOOD. Heh.

    I hope Lawry’s doesn’t disappoint…

    Shit, I’m supposed to be doing work!

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  • scissors
    Saturday, July 25th 2009 @ 3:50 amcomments »
    categorised: Daffodil Fields!, PinkPolarBear, Rant!, dear God, farm-mee-li, retail therapy

    Seriously, I need to stop shopping! Although, I am a firm believer in retail therapy. Just look at me today – all smiles and excited because I’d bought stuff! Hehe.

    Headed down to the Puma private sale this morning with Pinkie. He didn’t find anything he liked (he didn’t like the super comfy stripey guys jacket that I picked out! Sheesh, how can anyone not like stripes??), but I picked up my hot pink jacket! Loveeeee!! I love jackets and sweaters; it’s just that most of the time it’s too damn hot to wear them in Singapore.

    How do you wear your jackets? Nice and snug or loose and flappy baggy?

    I used to love super huge jackets because of how big the were – so comfy and you can hide all fat under all that excess cloth! Hehe. I think I might have grown a little out of that phase though, because I realised while trying on jackets today, I’m starting to prefer them to fit a little more snugly so that the jacket doesn’t look too baggy.

    One major rule I have when picking out jackets is that the sleeves have to be longer than my arms! What bugs me the most about jackets is when my hands are freezing cold while the rest of me is warm. I like tucking my hands into the sleeves and erm, flapping around. Much to Pinkie’s amusement, this flapping business. Haha.

    We left Puma after awhile and popped by the Royal Sporting House factory outlet store downstairs. Walked around the shop and Pinkie pointed out a hot pink Nike jacket to me. I KNOW RIGHT. Hot pink again?? O but don’t stone me, please. This cut’s different from all my other jackets – it’s a proper lady’s jacket cut that fits super snugly. Just nice, actually! Pinkie didn’t like the collar much but I gave in to pinkdom and picked it up anyway. 50% off! Heee.

    Circled the store a few more times because he was waiting for his friend to get back to him on a pair of shoes he wanted. Whilst going round and round, I kinda accidentally chanced upon a pair of Lacoste red pumps. So cute! I thought they looked like strawberries! Hehehe. I just had to try them on, of course.

    Pottered around looking for sizes in the boxes stacked under the shelves, when suddenly my superhero boyfriend accidentally found a pair in black! Which was awesomeeeee. And erm yes, I bought them too. *shame faced* O but they were at 50% discount too! AHAHAHA. I is teh rocks!

    After seeing me spend money (which I really shouldn’t, but you know, I rationalise and figure that I need these things for school and they’d be useful to have, although I know I don’t need 2 hot pink jackets in a day but I didn’t like the other colour options you see! yes. rambling.) Pinkie decided that he wanted to shop around too, so we headed to Vivo.

    Can I just say that having GPS on my phone is totally awesome?! Never mind that there are a thousand other reasons why I love my iPhone (which, in case you didn’t know, is also decked in hot pink!) but having GPS + data plan rocks! Being able to check the map, check gothere.sg, check the next bus arriving time, check bus routes… just rocks my socks. Heee.

    We walked around Vivo just window shopping, and it was lovely. :) I love simple days like these when we’re just spending time together. Hehe.

    He requested to have lunch at McDonald’s because…….. SHAKER FRIES ARE BACK!!!!!!!!! Shake shake shake! After the frenzy on Twitter yesterday morning when I woke up, I ordered McDees for my late lunch and happily informed him that I had seaweed shaker fries! Yummy! I wish the pepper one would come back though! Together with the black pepper burger, please. And twister fries too! Oooh.

    Oh, and McWings make my day, despite the amount of fat and oil… Too damn nice!

    EY. I miss the rice burger at McDees, actually. I miss it, A LOT. Even though no one else really liked it. Not many of my friends, that is.. but I really really really liked it a lot. When it got taken off the menu, I was so sad! Never really know what to eat there anymore since then. Haha. They’re all second choices, bah.

    Pinkie also convinced me to invest in a proper pair of shades with proper protection for my eyes against UV rays, and not get cheap shades. There goes money again… especially since I found a pair of Ray Ban’s that I likeeee. Have you any idea how difficult it is to find a pair of shades that actually fits my face?! OMG. Trying not to spend money!!! Boo.

    I seem to be digressing a lot today, huh?

    Anyway, today was an important day also because MY BROTHER BOOKED OUT FROM CAMP FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!! *happy face* I’m not extremely close to my brother, but I really was rather sad that he was going into NS two weeks ago. During the two weeks, he’d call or sms me quite often to just chat. We’ve never really had that sort of close relationship, so it was really nice. :) Something good that NS brings, I suppose.

    I wanted to take him to the secret Jappy place that Qwen introduced me too, but we didn’t make it in time for their last order. My tummy is sad, cos she really wanted the beef teriyaki set tonight! Boo. My second choice didn’t happen either, because they ran out of hot soup for their ramen. SHEESH.

    Headed to Waraku instead. Joel was happy with dinner, so I guess that’s all that mattered. I’m so not used to seeing him with no hair on his head!! Hahahaha. He looks older without hair. Lol.

    Ah well. It’s devotions with Pinkie tomorrow, and then Hillsong concert. :) Awesome.

    Have we forgotten what true worship is?
    God’s greatest and most important command in the bible is to Love one another. Worshipping God goes far and beyond the mere definition of the word itself, i/e praying and going to church etc etc. Worship is an act of your entire life.
    As I’d noted in a post on Flippers & Paws, what use is it if you focus on praying etc if you neglect the felt needs of the ones you are watching over?? Sigh…

    Dear God, please bring me back close to you. Thank you.
    I pray in Jesus’ most precious name, Amen.

    Alright, I need to get some sleep to recover from my 2 hour sleep nap last night and a long day out!! Grarrrrrr.

  • scissors
    Wednesday, July 15th 2009 @ 1:58 amcomments »
    categorised: Daffodil Fields!, Fuzzies, The Family, Uni, farm-mee-li, retail therapy

    Aloha, sunshines!! How’s your Tuesday rolling along? Tuesdays have always been my favourite day of the week, for no apparent reason. I suspect it might have started in secondary school, because we were let out half an hour earlier on Tuesdays because the teachers had their weekly staff meeting.

    My Tuesday was awesomeee! I woke up late though, at about 12noon because I couldn’t sleep last night until.. well, this morning. I fell asleep at 8am! WHAT THE. Crawled out of bed after repeated phone calls from Dawn, who I was supposed to meet for lunch. Heh heh.

    We pushed back the meeting time to 1.30pm and amazingly enough, I made it in time! All because the bus that takes me to the MRT station arrived just as I reached the bus stop. Don’t you just love days like these! From then on, it took me less than half an hour to reach Orchard. Wonderful! Ahahaha!

    I am so irritatingly chirpy today, huh?!

    ANYWAY! Dawnie and I met up to go…… MAKEUP SHOPPING!!! *mad happy squeals* OMG, I loveeee shopping for makeup! She finally decided to listen to me (and possibly a few others too) to get her own foundation! I am so happy! Milestone! HAHAHA ok I will shut up now.

    We decided to get lunch first and had the most disgusting lunch I’ve had at Takashimaya. Ughh. Being on a budget (actually, my exact words were – save money on food, spend more on makeup!) we decided to eat at the Taka Food Court. She wanted Jap rice and I didn’t feel like eating Saba from the lovely stall behind the food court, and I decided that Yoshinoya sucks (she had a craving, oops) so we settled on the Japanese stall at the entrance of the food court.

    Big mistake. Dawn went to order her food first, and then came back with a bowl of rice and beef, much like the Yoshinoya one. It looked alright so I got up to order a bowl of ramen. Thus began my miserable experience. Not knowing what the different types of ramen listed on their board meant, I asked the lady (auntie?) at the counter. MIGHT AS WELL DON’T ASK.

    AUNTIE: Oh, they are just different soup bases.
    ME: Yea, what’s the difference between the first 3?
    AUNTIE: Errr, jiang you and… salt.
    ME: Errr…. huh?
    AUNTIE: Aiya, actually about the same. The difference very little.
    ME: *confused* But what’s the difference?
    AUNTIE: Soy sauce, and salt lor. Which one you want? There. It’s different. *points to menu* Can see? Different one.
    ME: Ya, I can see. But I don’t understand, that’s why I’m asking?!

    BAH! Ordered the Miso in the end, even though I’m not fond of it because the conversation was just going NOWHERE. It was a measly portion. How do I put this – it was $7.90, had ONE slice of fish cake, ONE slice of char siew and a tiny portion of noodles. Get this: I wasn’t hungry when I sat down, and when I was done with my noodles, I wasn’t full! WTH. She said she thinks Yoshinoya tastes better than the food she had. Omg.

    Never mindddd. Off to look for foundation for Dawn and shoes for me! All my footwear seem to hurt because the comfortable ones are dying or have died. Need shoes for school! Heh heh.

    Wandered around testing different brands of foundations for her. Also wandered into Schu where I was hopping around in excitement from the cute shoes and colours around! Hehehe. I got 2 pairs of pumps! The second pair that you buy goes at a 50% discount, soooo 2 colours for me! GUESS WHAT COLOURS I GOT. HAHA!

    I got….. PINK! Stop rolling your eyes.
    One pair in pale pink for easy matching, and the other in HOT PINK. I’m in love with my shoes! Initially stayed away from the hot pink even though the colour was lovely because I thought I’d look mad in it. Plus.. how to match! Couldn’t resist trying them on anyway.. and then didn’t want to take them off. I am incorrigible, I know.

    Trotted off to Tangs where Dawn continued trying different foundations. The blush colours at Shu Uemera are lovelyyyy! But so expensive. Meep. I love looking at blush colours! All the wonderful shades of pink staring happily at me. *happy sigh*

    Dawn finally settled on MAC’s Studio Fix foundation. $47, no refills. You just buy the whole compact each time you need to. Sounds pretty good to me! I asked to try my shade, just for fun.. And when I went to the mirror, I gasped. Not because it was hideous.. Nooooo but because!!! I couldn’t even tell where it was applied! It blended in with my skin tone soooo well. OH MANNNN. Why! Why you tempt me like this! I am a poor unemployed soon-to-be student, you know!!!

    What’s worse is that I think I am supposed to use Studio Tech (?) which is extra moisturising, and has SPF. My skin flakes when I apply foundation, so I need the extra moisturising stuff. And this one is $72!!!! Pft. Only because it’s the case + refills. Refills are at $58. How now, brown cows?

    I’m currently using Ettusais’ foundation and it’s served me well. Hesitating between switching brands because this is my first Ettusais foundation, i/e I haven’t even used enough to buy refills yet. Sheesh. Talk about fickle. Their refills are $48.

    If I do switch to MAC, I’ll finish up whatever’s left I suppose. Oh well. We’ll see when the time comes.

    At the MAC counter, I couldn’t resist getting something though. I got blusher!! *happy* Nice shade of natural pink.. It’s called Pinch o’ Peach! HOW ADORABLE. Ahahahaha.

    I headed off after that to meet CLARA!!!!!! OMG I haven’t seen my bestie in AGES AND AGES AND AGES. So happy we finally met up today. I love how we don’t meet for months on end because of our insane schedules, and yet when we meet there isn’t even a second of awkwardness. There’s no time wasted getting used to being around each other – love!

    We went to get her a bible at Tecman. YES, MY BESTIE HAS ACCEPTED CHRIST!!!!! Praise God! I am so happy, hehehe! She got an awesome bible.. I also want!!! It’s black and has 3 nice big swirls of shimmer – hot pink (!!!) / turquoise / amber. Niceee. I also managed to pick up the next book that Pinkie & I are gonna use for our devotions! Haven’t managed to find those at TrumpetPraise, so YAY! Happy I found them. =)

    Met up with Hammy for awhile because she happened to be in the area. OMG, I miss you so much, you know?!?! Even though it was only a short while, I was really really glad for it! We need a proper outing soon.. =(

    After sitting around for awhile, Clara and I headed off to dinner. Went off to this tiny Jap place that Qwen told me about. I shall not tell you where it is! *smug face* Lovely, hidden away.. Tucked with good food and super affordable, especially for its quality! Heh heh. Downsides are the location + horrible grumpy aunties + menus with no pictures or descriptions. Hahaha.

    I had the beef teriyaki set today, and it was AMAZING! The beef tasted of the grill, and was cooked just right. Oh so happy. Hee hee hee.

    Speaking of food, I am hungry already!! Off for food.

    My parents are heading off to Genting for a few days, and my mum came in and told me, “I bought enough snacks to last you!” We’ll see.. HAHAHAHAHA.

    My brother just went into army last week, and I wasn’t able to send him in because of the H1N1 guidelines. Boo. 2 people were to send him in, instead of the previously mentioned 5. So sadddd. I miss having him around.. Meh. He texted me earlier, and said that the days are long and tiring and that he didn’t think he would wanna see his family so badly.

    !!!

    He can’t wait for the 24th, when he can come home after being in Tekong for 2 weeks. Shall bring him out to eat when he gets out!! I can’t believe I miss my smelly brother. Hahaha.

    Ok, Imma head off to raid the supply of snacks that my Mum claims is enough to last me and see if she’s right!! Hee hee.

    I CAN’T BELIEVE SCHOOL IS STARTING IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS, for the first time in 3 years. AHHHHHHHH!! *panics*

  • scissors
    Wednesday, June 24th 2009 @ 10:14 pmcomments »
    categorised: Daffodil Fields!, I'M HUNGRY!!!, farm-mee-li, retail therapy

    Got up this morning to news that Pinkie is too sick to go out as planned and wanted to rest at home. I felt like heading out of the house today so I tried to find someone else who was free but everyone was busy! Pftt. So I headed next door and found my brother at home! YAYYY!

    Also found Russell sleeping on his bed so I poked and squished Russell, which woke Joel up, muahaha. Plan accomplished! Asked him to head out for lunch with me if he was free so he got up. I hardly ever go out with my brother, cos we just don’t really hang out much. He’s going into NS in a couple of weeks though, and I’ll miss having him around a lot..

    I’d planned to take him to the little ramen place I love behind Centrepoint, but when we got there (after braving the drizzle lol) it was closeddd! Damn, split shifts. Ohwell. We decided to head to Waraku (Jap food) at Starhub Centre cos it was just nearby and I had a mad craving for Japanese food.

    Lunch turned out great, much to my delight and slight surprise! We both got this set which had sliced beef + egg on a hot plate/pot thingamajig. It came with rice and a mini bowl of hot udon or soba. It also came with a tiny side of potato salad which turned out to be one of my favourite things on the table. For 16 bucks, I thought it was rather worth the price, actually.

    We also got a side of cold chasoba + zaru soba to share. Loveeeee!! Their soba set also came with a raw quail’s egg. We mixed it into the dipping sauce – is that what is supposed to happen? Hahaha. We just tried it, and it was lovely. It added a smoother texture to the sauce. Too bad I was fricking full by then.

    I felt abit mad alternating between 3 staples with every mouthful, but damnnnn! It totally made me happy! Blogging about this is making me crave for the potato salad… Sob. I want more! Should head down to Meidi-ya soon. I loveeee Liang Court!!

    Haven’t had dinner because I was so damn full from lunch + KOI cafe on the way home. Now I’m starving. Well done.

    Oh, and I bought new shampoo and conditioner! YAYYY! Surely there is something wrong with me? I’m addicted to nice shampoo smells. I was waiting for the bus home and I was fighting off an urge to take the bottle, open it and INHALEEEEE.

  • scissors
    Thursday, May 21st 2009 @ 5:09 amcomments »
    categorised: Contemplation, Crybaby, PinkPolarBear, dear God, farm-mee-li

    It’s almost 5 in the morning.

    5 minutes ago, my dad came into my room to pass me the MOS Clubbers Guide 2009 CD that he bought, to pass to Pinkie because he realised he cannot listen to…….. those songs. Thank God. At least that’s one person less around me listening to trance. *grimace*

    4.55am. My dad came to pass me a CD at 4.55am. It sounds ridiculous, but my heart breaks at this, only because I know he is doing so because he cannot sleep.

    An hour ago, he was in my room telling me about his day at work.
    Some people deserve to die. Rather, they don’t deserve to live, or have what they have anyway. Seeing my dad unable to sleep at 4 in the morning when he has a whole day of meetings the next day at work is insane. I pray all these gets sorted out soon. Prayer works, right?

    Alex (yes, Kelv’s evil friend) asked me how I was on MSN earlier today. How am I? I was at a loss as to how to reply him. So I asked him why he asked. A string of text followed which didn’t answer my question but it didn’t matter anymore. I tried to answer his question but he said I wasn’t answering it.

    Tired. Stoned. Don’t feel much about anything. Sian.

    He said that wasn’t answering his question, and I suppose it’s true. I need to figure out the mess in my head. Something tells me I’m afraid to. The other day after speaking with Van online, we talked briefly about what was bothering us. I didn’t particularly want to get into the conversation any deeper than the surface, but it happened to scrape past just a lil.

    And what’s scary is that just from that little bit of conversation came a lot of unspeakable heartache on my part. I don’t know what to do, and I’m not sure what I want anymore. I’m not even sure I want to face this.

    There will always be periods of feeling far away from God, but somehow, this time feels different and I don’t mean that in a good way either. Things feel different. People feel different. Where are you? My heart is breaking and it’s useless to keep telling me that you are there to walk with me, not when I feel so alone. It is also completely pointless to tell me that ultimately I live for God and not anyone else when you are the ones who are making that difficult. Those words seem so empty now so I’d rather not hear them.

    What makes me even sadder is that somehow along the way, the 8 days that I have left to countdown feels different as well. It tears me apart to feel this way and I’m not even sure what’s happening. I tell myself that things will be better in abit, things will be better… right?

    Some days I wonder why I keep wanting to hear words spoken out loud to convey their meanings.
    Is it REALLY simply because Words are my 2nd love language, or because everything else doesn’t give me enough security to just trust you?

    So then what’s the difference and significance of words and actions?
    Words serve to encourage.
    Actions serve to support.

    They come as a package – one cannot be without the other. If you just speak, what use is it? And if you just carry out actions without supporting, you get the task done but leave hearts to be broken. WHAT’S THE POINT????

    I’m tearing up whilst typing this – I didn’t expect all these words and text to appear; I’d wanted to do a simple 3 liner post.

    I wanted to say that I should just learn to bite my tongue, keep quiet and not bug you.

    I hate feeling this alone.
    Spare me empty words and superficial are you okays please.

  • scissors
    Monday, April 13th 2009 @ 10:45 pmcomments »
    categorised: Fuzzies, LOL, PinkPolarBear, The Family, Work, farm-mee-li

    Zhan gave me a couple of missed calls so I called him back.

    JOJO: hello?
    ZHAN: hi! you’re wondering why I called you right?
    JOJO: uh huhhh…
    ZHAN: cos I miss your stupid voice la!
    JOJO: awww………………… HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

    And then I laughed for quite a bit after that. Hahaha. I likey random phone calls!

    Being in the office was quite amusing today. I think the lack of sleep affected my brain somewhat and I couldn’t stop laughing at nothing and everything, much to the horror of Charmaine and Liwei. Hahahaha.

    When I stepped into my dad’s car this evening, I shrieked in horror. HE. WAS. PLAYING. TRANCE. I continued shrieking in horror and he proudly showed me the album cover.
    It was………………………………. MOS CLUBBERS GUIDE 2009!!!!!! WTH!!!!! GAHHHH!!!

    First of all, I HATE TRANCE. Secondly – I am soon going to be surrounded by trance. Zhan says it is going to be the soundtrack of my life. My colleagues listen to trance. My boyfriend loves trance. AND NOW MY DAD LISTENS TO TRANCE.

    Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo……………!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    On a totally different (and less hysterical) note, this made me tear and feel incredibly loved by the people around me:

    “and i’m truly happy for you that you’ve found somebody worth fighting for.. somebody you can say you love. Truly happy.”

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    Tuesday, April 7th 2009 @ 11:27 pmcomments »
    categorised: PinkPolarBear, farm-mee-li, veedeeohs

    Awesome ad by MCYS. It completely took me by surprise, at how thoughtful and well done this ad was. What surprised me was that the ad managed to achieve its aim of getting me to pause and think about the people in my life, despite knowing full well what the ad was about when I first watched it.

    Have you paid attention to, and appreciated the beautiful imperfections of the ones around you? Especially family. The little things they do that annoy you – are they in fact, what makes them perfect for you?

    And you, you’re beautifully imperfect for me.
    (Except snores. I REALLY REALLY HATE SNORES HAHAHA!)

  • scissors
    Thursday, March 26th 2009 @ 3:18 pmcomments »
    categorised: Crybaby, Fuzzies, PinkPolarBear, farm-mee-li, rumpledoodles.com, snapshots


    That’s Russell struggling to come along to Bangkok with my mum and I last week. Was it last week?

    Bangkok was alright. Normal, which is usually my response when people ask how it was. Good food and 10 dresses. Oh, and an awesomely comfortable bed with fluffy pillows and a huggge comforter that swallowed me whole. Hee.

    My parents are away in Malaysia again this week. My dad’s there for a business thing, so he brought my mum along. Nice for them! Not so nice for me cos the house is constantly empty, sobs.

    But anywayyy. My Tumblr page has been seeing much updates.

    If you’re still a lil lost on the whole Tumblr idea, it’s essentially a web playground for me! I loveee playgrounds, especially swings. (As if you didn’t already know that)
    It’s a lot of random pictures and quotes that I find online that I like, as well as random snippets of my life formed mostly from the photos taken on my phone, Tweedledee.

    I suppose, logically, things seem to somewhat be falling into place. I just pray that nothing screws it up, and also that the PMS moodiness goes away because it’s driving me mad. My doctor gave me pills for my tummy and nausea yesterday, as well as some mild relaxants (which sounds nicer than tranquilizers).

    I’d tried to fall asleep without them but gave up at 2am, so I took one. Fell asleep after half an hour. Sounds awesome, but I still woke up in the middle of the night. Sighhhh..

    The spiralling emotions feel somewhat familiar, so I guess I’d better buck up and toss them out the window, huh? Heads up though – I’d need your help, patience and most of all, love, to do this. =/


    Somehow, somewhere along the way, I realised how much I love you.

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