Ouch.. 
Aight, got to pick myself up, dust off the random words and move on – and be better than this. 
Random bursts
bruisin’
it doesn’t matter in the end.
All the nitty gritty crap that you keep harping about.
The unimportant bits that you tag such high regard on.
All those doesn’t matter in the end. It won’t matter.
How you start and how you go about things in the process matters, but not when you continually insist on focusing on the unimportant stuff.
It only bugs me because………. Oh never mind, you won’t listen because you never have.
Don’t ask me what I think when you aren’t ready for the answers because futile defensiveness is just pathetic.
Woe is a vicious cycle.
I am fat.
I am on a diet.
I did not make it to the supermarket to get healthy snacks.
My mum comes home with a bag of chips.
.
.
.
… I am fat.
ask me anything!
I’ve set up the Ask page for my Tumblr, so here it is!
You have to have a Tumblr account to do that, and why shouldn’t you have one? I <3 Tumblr!!
On a sidenote, I really really want to eat sushi now because I am hungry and sushi is COLD.
spiralling
The disappointment from first looking forward very much to something and then having it snatched away from beneath your nose before you get to enjoy it is just… cruel.
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That said, why is my favourite month of the year quickly becoming more and more depressing every year?
Maybe this is why people dislike celebrating their birthdays more and more as they grow older.
Is this part of growing up? Then I want no part in it.
I just want to be happy.
I should be so happy… or so people have been telling me.
happy new year!
hello everyone!
happy new year!! may each and everyone of you have a good reunion dinner tonight with your family and loved ones, and a well-deserved break this weekend!
not sure why, but I’m kinda excited about Chinese new year this year. haha. despite having work to complete over the weekend..
also, happy valentine’s day to you too! whether you may be part of a couple, or single, may you have a good day filled with love for the people around you 
love you all!!
deficit.
my mum got warded into the hospital a couple of hours ago. she’s been having chest pains for awhile and my dad finally managed to get her to go to the hospital to get it checked.
she’s spending the night there, and I think we’ll know tomorrow morning if she can be discharged.
hospitals are depressing.
what’s strange is that that wasn’t what made me cry, or go to bed with a heavy heart tonight.
things seem to keep adding up to a big fat zero, no matter what I attempt to do. no wonder my maths fail. haaaaaa.
I wonder how much longer i have before it eats me up.
things keep falling apart over and over recently, and I hate that it repeatedly feels like there’s no form of support.
guess what they say about emotional bank accounts might be true afterall. deficit is teh sucks.
yea ok.
yea yea yea ok.
love always protects?
what? you think that means protecting against physical harm? are you even capable of that?
I don’t like seeing my friends upset. blerugh.
why is there so much pride, even in a relationship?
hearts break and wounds deepen.
“worst situation ever.” – sighhhhhh.
severely lacking in hugs and affection. you all always ask me how I do it, and furthermore, how I’ve done it for the past two and a half years or so.. and that you wouldn’t have been able to, that the chances of straying is so high.
I’m not too sure myself.
Of picking up and stalkers
After an entire week of crying every night and feeling helpless and upset, of sleeping pills (mild ones – don’t have a heart attack please. it’s way better for me to sleep than to be up crying!) and of lovely friends, I think I can now safely say that I am feeling a whole lot better and ready to take on what comes next.
It hasn’t been an easy week dealing with everything that is happening, but it’s slowly coming under control somehow. I was finally able to talk things out and get most of the mush in my head sorted out, so that’s good. I’ve a feeling next week will be better!
I wouldn’t have been able to do this without the lovely people around me, who’ve been insanely nice and caring. <3
Also, I was blessed with the gift of Flickr Pro!!!!!! It was from someone I don’t know, and it was all a pleasant surprise that came at the right time. It was a token of support for my Project 52, because he likes my photos and that just really touched me – I was really encouraged by the simple gesture. Hee hee. Thank you!!!
Today and tomorrow have been set aside for me to catch up on the work I was unable to do this week, but despite being up for about 3 hours now, I feel the attack of the naps coming! Zzzz…
That aside, someone did a search for my name multiple times and found this blog, so hello who are you why are you so freaky can’t you just say hi? Pshhh.
WHY SO SERIOUSSSS
Life’s short, we all know that.
So why do people still frequently seem to lose sight of what is important? Important, not urgent.
Do we really need to be so serious, or so competitive? In fact, do we really need to make sense all the bloody time?
Loosen up and live a little. Let go of yourselves and laugh. Laugh at the world, laugh at the stupid things people like to say and laugh at yourselves.
Life’s not going to take you that seriously, so lighten up!
By the way, I WANT MORE SUPER RINGS!
And I also want to find Skinny Jolene again. She seems to have ran away.
drift.
i wish thoughts didn’t threaten to spiral out of control in the dead of the night.
while some routines bring about stability and comfort, they also bring about habits and expectations just begging to be broken and shattered.
I wonder what life would be without expectations – better or worse?
I wish……. for too much, apparently. even I don’t know what exactly I want.
or maybe I do, making things worse because I can’t always have what I want, can I?
sometimes I wish we could choose our love languages. screw words. careless ones, spiteful ones or the worst – the ones that never come. just sayin’ btw.
last night I held pip’s paw to sleep.
where are you?
or You? You’re all I need. perhaps I needed to be reminded of that again. God, take me back..
ugh. ok. nuff. what a horrid end to my otherwise pleasant Saturday. cooking dash. maybe that will work. or distract. or lull to sleep……. that’d be good.
