the random adventures of jojo

Woke up extremely grumpy because first of all, I got up 3 hours later than I’d planned because I couldn’t sleep the night before. My chest hurt, and the weird feeling is back again.

And then I got mighty annoyed with my brother who fought with me over the toilet, got in first and as a result, I had to take a cab down to City Hall. The best part? HE WAS FRICKING DRIVING DOWN TO MARINA. Whatever. I don’t know why I bothered to be taken in by his emotional blackmail to attend his bloody commissioning parade, and as a result pushing back and cutting short my London trip.

*insert rant here about people I do not wish to rant about in public*

Lastly, before you laugh at other people and the things that they do, please pause for a bloody second and look at yourself. How is it that people can pick on other people when they themselves did the *exact* same thing before (and ticking me off in the process thus this rant)?!?!?!? SERIOUSLY. Irony of the year.

And you. Selfish bastard. When you are so selfish in your actions, why the heck do you act like you expect people to help you out all the time?

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I can’t sleep.

my chest hurts. there’s an odd cold sensation in my lungs when I breathe and it’s immensely uncomfortable.

how do people fall asleep when things weigh on their mind? or heart?

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It’s 2.30am and I can’t sleep because I am having difficulty breathing as it is. If you haven’t heard from me or seen me in awhile, it’s because I am sick and down with a stupid flu that refuses to go away!

I haven’t been this sick in…… I don’t even know how long.
This week was the first week of school since the one week break, and I was in school for a grand total of one day. Sheesh.

I’ve gone to the doctor’s THREE times in five days. WTH!!!! Argh. No idea why this stupid flu is so bad.. I’m guessing the weather and the stupid haze. Ugh!

Going out to school on Thursday was a horrid idea cos it only made me feel worse x834948 times. Yech.

My dad took me to another doctor today, all the way in Bedok. Old people area, man. All the people waiting to see the doctor were elderly! Haha. But my dad swears by that doctor, even though he’s more ex. I walked in and saw that he doesn’t have a computer on his desk! I thought everyone gave up relying on those cards.. but nooooo. This clinic only used those memo cards to jot down patients’ particulars.

He was bloody expensive, though. The bright side is that after taking the meds he prescribed and taking a nap, I woke up feeling better! First time all week that has happened. Sigh. I’m hoping that when I do eventually manage to sleep, I wake up feeling better tomorrow cos I really need to head out and buy materials for a project due on Monday. Blerugh.. I can only pray that journey out doesn’t make me feel worse.

The whole week has been one big daze for me. Not sure where my days started and ended. And trying to get my lecturer to email me my work nearly killed me. Bah. Hate missing classes.. although I skip them from time to time. Haha.

In other news, I really really miss heading out and taking photos. Thinking of shooting on film for awhile these days… Maybe start with my LC-A, finish up the roll in my SLR and then try out a rangefinder. Awesome. If I get well soon, that is.

I don’t remember what it’s like to breathe normally anymore.

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All the nitty gritty crap that you keep harping about.
The unimportant bits that you tag such high regard on.
All those doesn’t matter in the end. It won’t matter.

How you start and how you go about things in the process matters, but not when you continually insist on focusing on the unimportant stuff.

It only bugs me because………. Oh never mind, you won’t listen because you never have.

Don’t ask me what I think when you aren’t ready for the answers because futile defensiveness is just pathetic.

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I GIVE UP.
on singnet, and on saturday

it’s rapidly losing its meaning anyway.
goodbye.

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Sorry the photo for the 6th photo is late by a couple of days! It’s been a craaaazy weekend, what with the shitload of work we have to complete as well as Chinese New Year of course.

Although my family typically doesn’t do as much visiting doing Chinese New Year as most people I know, it still took up a couple of days over the extended weekend we had. I tried to find time in between to get work done, and thus totally didn’t have the time or energy to head out to shoot.

All weekend, I’ve been caught up in making gigantic ice cream scoops and cones, cutting and spraying and going a little insane. And oh, saying hi to relatives and collecting ang baos, and being particulary stunned and overwhelmed (and very very pleasantly surprised) by my visit to Pinkie’s mum. Haha.

And this… is typically what I face when I am stuck at home, at the dining table getting work done…

microscopic world view…

Haha, sadly enough, that has been my world view for awhile now. It is my cutting mat, and I just placed a bright bowl of happy paper clips on it to make me happier. Which reminds me, I need to buy more happy paper clips…

It’s back to school tomorrow, for the extended weekend ends today.

My birthday is in a little over a week, and………… I don’t feel like doing anything, mostly because most of the people I would want to spend it with won’t be in this damned country. Bah.

That, and that everything I want to do involves money which I do not have. And no, I am not going to use my ang bao money because that goes towards London Fund. MEH.

(Basically, all I wanna do is sit around in a nice air-conditioned place and BE PAMPERED… which then equates to a nice pedicure at the place I like at Holland V, followed by a nice dinner at Da Paolo’s.. *sulk*)

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WTF DID YOU YELL AT ME FOR??!!!!???

don’t you EVER ask why I don’t go to you for help even though you esteem yourself to be highly resourceful.

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*#!*&^#*&@

OH MY GOD.

I finally finished redoing my stupid papercut poster thing for school because the first time I did it, it wasn’t cut very well..

AND THEN…. A PIECE OF MASKING TAPE RIPPED IT.

ARGH WHAT THE HELL LA. I am so pissed.

Hours of work wasted, and now I have to redo with time supposed to be spent on other pieces of work.

RAR!!!!!!!!!

Is this that hard to understand?!?!?!?! I don’t think it’s unreasonable to be upset over this, seeing as how it JUST happened. Whatever.

No patience to deal with everything else. ARGH.

Also, I slipped and fell at home today because the floor was wet, and now the ankle which I’d sprained badly before still hurts and feels wonky.

That was right after my mum MADE A FACE when I told her about my new upcoming project at school. I only told her because I was excited about it. THANKS MUM.

Sometimes I really don’t know why I bother with so many people and things in my life. ARGH. Days like this I just want to sit in my own corner of the world and not bother with anyone.

WHAT A GRUMPY SATURDAY. *sulk*

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my mum got warded into the hospital a couple of hours ago. she’s been having chest pains for awhile and my dad finally managed to get her to go to the hospital to get it checked.

she’s spending the night there, and I think we’ll know tomorrow morning if she can be discharged.

hospitals are depressing.

what’s strange is that that wasn’t what made me cry, or go to bed with a heavy heart tonight.

things seem to keep adding up to a big fat zero, no matter what I attempt to do. no wonder my maths fail. haaaaaa.

I wonder how much longer i have before it eats me up.

things keep falling apart over and over recently, and I hate that it repeatedly feels like there’s no form of support.

guess what they say about emotional bank accounts might be true afterall. deficit is teh sucks.

yea ok.
yea yea yea ok.

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Tim Tams failed to make me feel better.

SERIOUSLY?!

Maybe I need to eat more.

I hate homework. *scowl*

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If I were to be accused of one of the seven sins taking over my life, it’d either be gluttony…. Or sloth. Goodness knows that if I had my way, I’d sleep at 4am and wake up at 3pm the next day, have lunch and then proceed to nap.

Oh, who am I kidding? That happens every weekend, much to my undone homework’s dismay. Don’t know what’s up with this semester but everyone seems to be sluggish about getting work done. I think it’s the 2 month Christmas break. Haha.. That has got to be the only drawback of long breaks.

Every Saturday, I’ve been forcing myself to sit at the dining table and get some work done, but I usually end up feeling guilty and pressed for time on Sunday. Haha!

I did manage to get some work done today, though! Still have another piece of work on today’s agenda so I suppose I’ll start on that soon.

School’s been alright, for those of you who’ve asked. It’s just a ton of work that I am new to, thus taking forever with each piece. Haha.

On a sidenote, my parents just got home and they forgot to buy me the dinner they said they’d get!!!! OMG WALAOEH I AM SUPER HUNGRY. I could have cooked noodles half an hour ago if they hadn’t said they would get dinner for me la!!! *EPIC SULK*

But they both were super nice and gave me money to get my CNY clothes so I shall just go and cook dinner nao. HAHAHA.

Before I disappear and ease the dizziness from hunger, I’ve overdue photos from when Zhan, Malcolm and I went out to shoot. We had brunch at my favourite place for brunch before that, and Felicia Chin was at the next table! SO CUTE. I have a crush on her, kthksbai. Hahahaha!

big bear paws!!! that’s an iPhone in his paws

poor tree…

malcolm has hair that is totally awesome to photograph!!! HAHAHA.

rarrrr!!!! hahahahaha

oh, shoo!

I don’t have proper photos from that outing because I hate the shots I took. Blerughhh. We didn’t go out to shoot this week either, so as of now I have no photo ready for Project 52. Ack. Shall see what’s around tomorrow.

Things have been a lil better at the home-front, albeit not knowing what is going to happen. Trying my best to leave everything to God, heh.

as with so many other things, i don’t expect you to understand. just keep the judgmental subtleties out of your tones.

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I got home at about 1pm today, and all I wanted to do was crash on my bed and take a loooong nap because I was exhausted from being stressed about everything + school work.

At 3am last night, I’d already decided on this much needed nap whilst on the phone with Pinkie. Haha.

Got home, fell asleep.. and it was all good, save for waking up in between a few times.

And then a few hours later, I got woken up repeatedly, more and more annoyed each time because I heard my aunt over at my place, making a hell lot of noise. She was downstairs in the kitchen/balcony and I could hear every word she was saying la!!! WALAO.

Tried to ignore it and went back to sleep. Awhile later, she began knocking on my door. Didn’t hear it at first but eventually did and the knocking became progressively louder. Ignored it in hopes of her heading back downstairs once she’d got it that YES, I WAS STILL ASLEEP.

But nooooooo.. the knocking became loud banging on my door with my name being screamed. WTH?

So I got up and opened the door in much grumpiness, only to be faced with a total WINNER of a question – DO YOU HAVE NEW CLOTHES TO WEAR FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR?

……. WTH????????????????????? Beyond pissed. Couldn’t get back to sleep after that.

Went on Facebook and found my profile page spammed with multiple mentions of some Help Haiti by Clicking application. Eh, what the hell? Could you not be stupid and pretentious? If you really want to donate, don’t sit around bloody Facebook clicking on a useless program that spams everyone okay?

For goodness sake, if you sincerely want to donate and help, go here : http://www.worldvision.org.sg/CF-General.php?catID=18

GAH!

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