the random adventures of jojo

All the nitty gritty crap that you keep harping about.
The unimportant bits that you tag such high regard on.
All those doesn’t matter in the end. It won’t matter.

How you start and how you go about things in the process matters, but not when you continually insist on focusing on the unimportant stuff.

It only bugs me because………. Oh never mind, you won’t listen because you never have.

Don’t ask me what I think when you aren’t ready for the answers because futile defensiveness is just pathetic.

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I GIVE UP.
on singnet, and on saturday

it’s rapidly losing its meaning anyway.
goodbye.

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Sorry the photo for the 6th photo is late by a couple of days! It’s been a craaaazy weekend, what with the shitload of work we have to complete as well as Chinese New Year of course.

Although my family typically doesn’t do as much visiting doing Chinese New Year as most people I know, it still took up a couple of days over the extended weekend we had. I tried to find time in between to get work done, and thus totally didn’t have the time or energy to head out to shoot.

All weekend, I’ve been caught up in making gigantic ice cream scoops and cones, cutting and spraying and going a little insane. And oh, saying hi to relatives and collecting ang baos, and being particulary stunned and overwhelmed (and very very pleasantly surprised) by my visit to Pinkie’s mum. Haha.

And this… is typically what I face when I am stuck at home, at the dining table getting work done…

microscopic world view…

Haha, sadly enough, that has been my world view for awhile now. It is my cutting mat, and I just placed a bright bowl of happy paper clips on it to make me happier. Which reminds me, I need to buy more happy paper clips…

It’s back to school tomorrow, for the extended weekend ends today.

My birthday is in a little over a week, and………… I don’t feel like doing anything, mostly because most of the people I would want to spend it with won’t be in this damned country. Bah.

That, and that everything I want to do involves money which I do not have. And no, I am not going to use my ang bao money because that goes towards London Fund. MEH.

(Basically, all I wanna do is sit around in a nice air-conditioned place and BE PAMPERED… which then equates to a nice pedicure at the place I like at Holland V, followed by a nice dinner at Da Paolo’s.. *sulk*)

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WTF DID YOU YELL AT ME FOR??!!!!???

don’t you EVER ask why I don’t go to you for help even though you esteem yourself to be highly resourceful.

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*#!*&^#*&@

OH MY GOD.

I finally finished redoing my stupid papercut poster thing for school because the first time I did it, it wasn’t cut very well..

AND THEN…. A PIECE OF MASKING TAPE RIPPED IT.

ARGH WHAT THE HELL LA. I am so pissed.

Hours of work wasted, and now I have to redo with time supposed to be spent on other pieces of work.

RAR!!!!!!!!!

Is this that hard to understand?!?!?!?! I don’t think it’s unreasonable to be upset over this, seeing as how it JUST happened. Whatever.

No patience to deal with everything else. ARGH.

Also, I slipped and fell at home today because the floor was wet, and now the ankle which I’d sprained badly before still hurts and feels wonky.

That was right after my mum MADE A FACE when I told her about my new upcoming project at school. I only told her because I was excited about it. THANKS MUM.

Sometimes I really don’t know why I bother with so many people and things in my life. ARGH. Days like this I just want to sit in my own corner of the world and not bother with anyone.

WHAT A GRUMPY SATURDAY. *sulk*

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my mum got warded into the hospital a couple of hours ago. she’s been having chest pains for awhile and my dad finally managed to get her to go to the hospital to get it checked.

she’s spending the night there, and I think we’ll know tomorrow morning if she can be discharged.

hospitals are depressing.

what’s strange is that that wasn’t what made me cry, or go to bed with a heavy heart tonight.

things seem to keep adding up to a big fat zero, no matter what I attempt to do. no wonder my maths fail. haaaaaa.

I wonder how much longer i have before it eats me up.

things keep falling apart over and over recently, and I hate that it repeatedly feels like there’s no form of support.

guess what they say about emotional bank accounts might be true afterall. deficit is teh sucks.

yea ok.
yea yea yea ok.

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Tim Tams failed to make me feel better.

SERIOUSLY?!

Maybe I need to eat more.

I hate homework. *scowl*

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If I were to be accused of one of the seven sins taking over my life, it’d either be gluttony…. Or sloth. Goodness knows that if I had my way, I’d sleep at 4am and wake up at 3pm the next day, have lunch and then proceed to nap.

Oh, who am I kidding? That happens every weekend, much to my undone homework’s dismay. Don’t know what’s up with this semester but everyone seems to be sluggish about getting work done. I think it’s the 2 month Christmas break. Haha.. That has got to be the only drawback of long breaks.

Every Saturday, I’ve been forcing myself to sit at the dining table and get some work done, but I usually end up feeling guilty and pressed for time on Sunday. Haha!

I did manage to get some work done today, though! Still have another piece of work on today’s agenda so I suppose I’ll start on that soon.

School’s been alright, for those of you who’ve asked. It’s just a ton of work that I am new to, thus taking forever with each piece. Haha.

On a sidenote, my parents just got home and they forgot to buy me the dinner they said they’d get!!!! OMG WALAOEH I AM SUPER HUNGRY. I could have cooked noodles half an hour ago if they hadn’t said they would get dinner for me la!!! *EPIC SULK*

But they both were super nice and gave me money to get my CNY clothes so I shall just go and cook dinner nao. HAHAHA.

Before I disappear and ease the dizziness from hunger, I’ve overdue photos from when Zhan, Malcolm and I went out to shoot. We had brunch at my favourite place for brunch before that, and Felicia Chin was at the next table! SO CUTE. I have a crush on her, kthksbai. Hahahaha!

big bear paws!!! that’s an iPhone in his paws

poor tree…

malcolm has hair that is totally awesome to photograph!!! HAHAHA.

rarrrr!!!! hahahahaha

oh, shoo!

I don’t have proper photos from that outing because I hate the shots I took. Blerughhh. We didn’t go out to shoot this week either, so as of now I have no photo ready for Project 52. Ack. Shall see what’s around tomorrow.

Things have been a lil better at the home-front, albeit not knowing what is going to happen. Trying my best to leave everything to God, heh.

as with so many other things, i don’t expect you to understand. just keep the judgmental subtleties out of your tones.

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I got home at about 1pm today, and all I wanted to do was crash on my bed and take a loooong nap because I was exhausted from being stressed about everything + school work.

At 3am last night, I’d already decided on this much needed nap whilst on the phone with Pinkie. Haha.

Got home, fell asleep.. and it was all good, save for waking up in between a few times.

And then a few hours later, I got woken up repeatedly, more and more annoyed each time because I heard my aunt over at my place, making a hell lot of noise. She was downstairs in the kitchen/balcony and I could hear every word she was saying la!!! WALAO.

Tried to ignore it and went back to sleep. Awhile later, she began knocking on my door. Didn’t hear it at first but eventually did and the knocking became progressively louder. Ignored it in hopes of her heading back downstairs once she’d got it that YES, I WAS STILL ASLEEP.

But nooooooo.. the knocking became loud banging on my door with my name being screamed. WTH?

So I got up and opened the door in much grumpiness, only to be faced with a total WINNER of a question – DO YOU HAVE NEW CLOTHES TO WEAR FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR?

……. WTH????????????????????? Beyond pissed. Couldn’t get back to sleep after that.

Went on Facebook and found my profile page spammed with multiple mentions of some Help Haiti by Clicking application. Eh, what the hell? Could you not be stupid and pretentious? If you really want to donate, don’t sit around bloody Facebook clicking on a useless program that spams everyone okay?

For goodness sake, if you sincerely want to donate and help, go here : http://www.worldvision.org.sg/CF-General.php?catID=18

GAH!

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Honestly, I’ve been doing my best to not snap at you for stupid comments made that seem to spill without thought process – or does it seem like humour to you?

Stop whining. I don’t think I did anything to deserve words spat out like that.

Pride pisses me off. Defensive arguments that were spun out of nowhere to defend against an argument that is a figment of your imagination aren’t that difficult to see through.

So unnecessary!

School begins tomorrow. Shall head off to reluctantly pack my bag and attempt to fall asleep at a decent hour instead of feeling angsty. Phbbbt.

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Home. Finally.

At long last.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. After all I prayed for to happen, this is the way things had to turn out?

One incredibly annoying to travel with, one put on a pedestal in his own mind, one repeatedly biased.

Shut your talk about different children having to be communicated with differently – YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT COMMUNICATING WITH ME, and yet refuse to admit it.

And then you go on to wonder why I keep going out and coming back late.

AND YOU. STOP SWEARING LA.

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It’s okay, y’know? You don’t have to pretend – I know I have no say. It doesn’t really matter at the end of the day. Not anymore, because I am choosing to ignore this for now.

The past week has been…………..
If you’ve been talking to me, you’d know.

All I can say is, going to bed with squeezed chests and short breaths made up for most of the nights. With a pounding heart, I resorted to pills so I could breathe normally. Crying out of exasperation doesn’t help either.

Neither are you.
You’re never wrong; who am I to say anything? I can’t, apparently. Not in this position.

In an alternate position, that co-exists, I thought I could, but hearing isn’t the same as listening so I shall shut up and not try to voice how I felt.

I am but a tiny fry in a sea of potatoes.
Funny though, how it turns out my mum sorta knows the Head of this region of potatoes.

QUESTIONSSSSSSSSS…? Hahahaha. I was looking for a part time job, but because of the past week and the _________ that came with it, I am re-thinking my options. Maybe I should just catch up on sleep and ease my mind.

I do, however, have a target of how much I wanted to earn or save during this holidays but I’m not sure how that’s going to happen. God will provide, yes? Yes.

So many plans, so many things to do…

Meeting up with Zhan for dinner and random walks and drives made me insanely happy. It also made me realise how long it’s been since I’ve been out with any of my close friends.

I’ve missed his sense of humour tons! Heh. He says few people get it.. but why! I bet they’re all dumb. Pft.

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Long bittersweet talks fueled by love, wiping chocolate off cheeks and pseudo sad faces.
& just like that, I find myself falling in love all over again. ♥

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