the random adventures of jojo

When I woke up this morning, I realised my MacBook couldn’t be turned on. Tried ways and means, but it didn’t work.

Long story short – it’s at the service centre now, and I am trying to retrieve my files in the HDD on my own, praying hard that it will not get corrupted.

I’m using Pinkie’s laptop now, and I am lost because well, it’s a PC and I am retardedly slow on it. Installing the Adobe software that I need is taking ages because each software is over 1gb. WTH???

So now I can’t do any work.

I’d go and try and sleep early but my mind is too wrecked to give me proper sleep.

My classmates were lifesavers today – from calming me down, to offering all sorts of help, to following me around dropping my MacBook off, and getting a HDD case from Sim Lim, lending me their MBPs to transfer my files out and back up copies of my work for me, to trying to save my ext HDD, to running virus scans, and basically keeping me sane and reassuring me over and over again. <3

It’s people like these who really give me hope again, who remind me of what I am striving to be.

I hope they manage to save my MacBook, because I’m not sure how I am going to finance a new one to replace it. Sigh. And if they do save it, I really pray that it’ll be stable to do work with because from past experiences, once the motherboard dies, things are pretty whacked.

After the whirlwind weekend, this is seriously the icing on the cake. I think it’s really really sad to feel like my world is falling apart when my MacBook dies, but OMG I really do need a stable Mac right now to do my work on because deadlines are fast approaching. As if I wasn’t stressed out enough.

But oh, you know what?

Congratulations! You’ve proven once again that you can win a cold war with anyone, even your daughter when she tearfully and desperately informs you that her Mac has just died! You can stand right smack in front of her, completely ignoring her, just looking through her! In your own words that I’ve been hearing for years, you won’t die if people don’t talk to you, so yay! Congratulations – you’ve done it once again! C’mon, people, applause!!!!!!!!!

(Don’t even bother asking me to talk things out, because last I tried, I got scolded for even daring to feel like my parents are biased So nope. Not anymore.)

I’ll get through this, with or without you.

& thank you, Pinkie, for being a source of endless love and support. Thank you for my safehouse <3

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Why the fuck can’t you listen to things being said?!

I already said don’t fucking crumple the paper, and you go ahead and happily ruin the two pieces I have. As if I don’t have enough crap to deal with.

“If you think it’s too stressful, then don’t do it! Don’t bring the frustration to the whole family!”

FUCK. Most of my stress comes from the back of my head, knowing that there is no damn money to pay for school fees, and the constant depletion of my savings account to pay for food, transport and school materials. I buy paper because I didn’t have the cash to buy the proper materials to do what I needed to do.

What I don’t understand is your inability to not cause me more stress.

Just don’t do it, huh? DAMN FUCKING RIGHT. I’ve wondered countless times why I don’t do just that. You don’t know how many nights I cry myself to sleep because I am torn between straining the finances with my school fees and cost, and whether or not I should just quit, leave school and go back to having a disposable income.

And then my heart just breaks into pieces because I fought so hard just to have a chance to do my degree, and it’s still plagued with THIS much worries every effing day.

It’s no fucking wonder I cannot wait to get out.

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Absolutely HATE oversleeping from (power) naps, especially when I’ve work to rush, cos that’s time wasted and I end up with a flipping headache most of the time.

ARGHHHHHH damnit.

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I think you make a horrible boyfriend who is incapable of taking care of your girlfriend.

Bah.

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How can you be so damn annoying and yet have no idea?!

Please just do all of us a favour, and SHUT THE HELL UP.

To quote one of my favourite friends, “yak yak yak yak yak.”
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Go run off into the wilderness please.

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Do you have any idea?!

Everything aside, at the end of the day, what cost does this come with? Right now my mum is out looking for a second job so she can have extra income, for crying out loud.

It’s what happens in between and the sacrifices it all comes with that makes my head hurt and my heart ache.

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After finally deciding a week ago that I definitely do want to sell my dslr and do an upgrade on the body for a number of reasons, I am still torn between a couple of choices.

Torn between being able to afford a particular model + a Tamron 17-50mm f2.8 lens + a bag, or a better model +…. nothing. HAHAHA.

Sigh, I’m torn for so many reasons, as a few people over the past week would have known. HAHA. Bleh..

Oh, and what lens should I bring to London?? The 17-50mm would be ideal but if I get the better model I won’t be able to afford it. Sighh..

Short term versus long term. Gah!

Oh well, I’m very hungry so I shall go find something to eat.

In other news, I am very very very bored because my sleeping pattern is whacked, and I have no plans everyday cos everyone is either working or having exams or not in this damn country. SULK!!!!!!!!

I need to go out.

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ARGH, I should have just shipped my Forever 21 stuff to myself internationally instead of using Vpost! They just sent me an invoice for 50 bucks because they’re charging by volumetric weight.. WALAOEH. ARGHHH. Hmpf.

Aaaand, my copy of InDesign is being cranky and I can’t get my work done. Can you spelled ANNOYED?

And there’s a 9am photography class tomorrow……. for which I haven’t printed my photo. HO HO HO. GG.

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Hello there, stalkers.

I know I haven’t been posting my Project 52 photos, and trust me – I am feeling very guilty about it!

It’s been an insane past few weeks, what with being sick for close to a month. I was in school waving 4 MCs about, trying to get my various lecturers to sign on them and everyone was shocked at the amount of MCs I was holding. Which reminds me, I really should get them submitted.

I received a love letter from the school the other day. They misssss me, and wanna see me more! Aww. So sweet. Printed on very nice paper too.

After dealing with stupid selfish people last week, I was rather bothered and upset by everything. But it did reveal how nice some of my classmates are.. for comforting me and repeatedly reassuring me, and then dropping me text messages to let me know that they’re around for me. OMG.. *melt*

I also met some nice people yesterday, and after everything I realised that perhaps that’s why I’ve been so grouchy of late. I think I lost a lot of faith in people, because the things that they say and do just reveals for self-centered they are.

How many people are nice just for the sake of being nice anyway? Or is your niceness and concern for others (even people you claim are your friends) attached to a price tag? Why should there be a limit to how much you care and show concern for others?

I was chatting with Fendy online and then it struck me that when people are nice without reason, it makes me happier and well, makes me have more faith in people. Hi Fendy. I know you are reading this.

Tsk, he also revealed that he has been reading my blog since last year! And never commented! Pft!

All you stalkers…..

Anyway, final assessments are in about 3 weeks time. And there are still a few bigger projects to finish up in the next 2 weeks. Ughhhh. And then there’s reworking a bunch of my previous work and attempting to update my empty CPJ. OHMYGOD. *head explodes*

I can’t wait for the holidays!!! If not to sleep and take a break, then to get away from seeing one of the most selfish _______ (insert whatever word you deem fit) I have met in quite awhile.

2 months and 25 more days! *hops about*

But for now, forever21.com will have to keep me happy and afloat.

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Woke up extremely grumpy because first of all, I got up 3 hours later than I’d planned because I couldn’t sleep the night before. My chest hurt, and the weird feeling is back again.

And then I got mighty annoyed with my brother who fought with me over the toilet, got in first and as a result, I had to take a cab down to City Hall. The best part? HE WAS FRICKING DRIVING DOWN TO MARINA. Whatever. I don’t know why I bothered to be taken in by his emotional blackmail to attend his bloody commissioning parade, and as a result pushing back and cutting short my London trip.

*insert rant here about people I do not wish to rant about in public*

Lastly, before you laugh at other people and the things that they do, please pause for a bloody second and look at yourself. How is it that people can pick on other people when they themselves did the *exact* same thing before (and ticking me off in the process thus this rant)?!?!?!? SERIOUSLY. Irony of the year.

And you. Selfish bastard. When you are so selfish in your actions, why the heck do you act like you expect people to help you out all the time?

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