I haven’t been this sick in…… I don’t even know how long.
This week was the first week of school since the one week break, and I was in school for a grand total of one day. Sheesh.

I’ve gone to the doctor’s THREE times in five days. WTH!!!! Argh. No idea why this stupid flu is so bad.. I’m guessing the weather and the stupid haze. Ugh!

Going out to school on Thursday was a horrid idea cos it only made me feel worse x834948 times. Yech.

My dad took me to another doctor today, all the way in Bedok. Old people area, man. All the people waiting to see the doctor were elderly! Haha. But my dad swears by that doctor, even though he’s more ex. I walked in and saw that he doesn’t have a computer on his desk! I thought everyone gave up relying on those cards.. but nooooo. This clinic only used those memo cards to jot down patients’ particulars.

He was bloody expensive, though. The bright side is that after taking the meds he prescribed and taking a nap, I woke up feeling better! First time all week that has happened. Sigh. I’m hoping that when I do eventually manage to sleep, I wake up feeling better tomorrow cos I really need to head out and buy materials for a project due on Monday. Blerugh.. I can only pray that journey out doesn’t make me feel worse.

The whole week has been one big daze for me. Not sure where my days started and ended. And trying to get my lecturer to email me my work nearly killed me. Bah. Hate missing classes.. although I skip them from time to time. Haha.

In other news, I really really miss heading out and taking photos. Thinking of shooting on film for awhile these days… Maybe start with my LC-A, finish up the roll in my SLR and then try out a rangefinder. Awesome. If I get well soon, that is.

I don’t remember what it’s like to breathe normally anymore.

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How you start and how you go about things in the process matters, but not when you continually insist on focusing on the unimportant stuff.

It only bugs me because………. Oh never mind, you won’t listen because you never have.

Don’t ask me what I think when you aren’t ready for the answers because futile defensiveness is just pathetic.

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boxed up lives…

I got out an old Nikkor lens I have sitting around and tested it on Kiera today. Yes, my D5000’s name is Kiera. Hee hee.

Anyways, the lens works perfectly on my camera, just without auto-focus. It’s 75mm – 240mm! So odd right? I’ve never seen a lens with these focal lengths before, haha.

Seeing as how I didn’t go out and shoot again this week, I stuck my camera out the window and looked for something to photograph when the gloomy and and clean lines caught my eye.

The weather’s been pretty nasty the past month, and all I wanted to do is curl up in an air-conditioned room all day long and just play games on my iPhone. Hahaha.

The gloomy sky and cooler temperatures were a huge welcome today! I don’t like taking photos of the sky if it’s not blue, but today just seemed different. I really hope the weather lets up and cools down soon, although apparently this disgustingly hot weather is supposed to last all the way til May. Sheesh.

It’s nice to know that I now have a zoom lens I can play with! Contemplating getting another lens. I’d originally wanted to get a zoom lens to take candid shots of people because I can’t do that with my 30mm unless I go up to their faces but I’m guessing that’d warrant a whack from most people. Haha.

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Anyways, looking at my photos just made me happier this gloomy Sunday evening. I miss my camera, and I wanna go out and take photos soon! Anyone wants to go this Friday afternoon? Hee.

More details about my birthday can be found on last week’s Project 52 post, if you’re interested.

I started the day with my ex-colleagues at my favourite brunch place!

hhhhrrrroy. HAHAHA.

taken by andee

andee and his white ep-1!

eggs florentine that made me very happy!

and the most awesome pancakes everrrrr!

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so cute, his ep-1’s super small lens cap! haha

my coloursplash flash sitting atop his ep-1.
notice how it is black. it was supposed to be pink, but mistakes and irresponsible blogshops caused it to remain black as a result of their folly, lack of following up, and my TOTALLY CANNOT BE BOTHERED TO CHASE THEM-ness. ahem.

ep-1 meets gf-1 meets Kiera, my d5000, and hroy’s new iPhone with Sigma lens =P

drowned in maple syrup

We headed to get drinks and pedicures, squealed at some dogs and cats before heading to get dinner at Da Paolo’s. I loveeee the king prawn pasta. Slurrrp. It was better than I’d remembered, like I’ve mentioned before, and now I’m craving for it again!!!!! Meh.

Dawnie came by for dinner, and looked scared by Andee who took this picture haha

Clara, otherwise known as my mad best friend, also came by though she was feeling abit sick. Loveee!!!! <3

Oh, but she had her revenge…

* I actually turned 24 lah. *sulk*

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No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, nothing else will do
I’ve gotta have you, I’ve gotta have you.

You’d think after about two and a half years of seeing my boyfriend for 3 months out of the entire year, I’d be used to it by now. I suppose this year has been somewhat easier, because there is knowledge at the back of my head that this is his last year there and that he will be back soon. Soon, is subjective, of course.

For the past 3 times he left to go back to school, it’d be in September. Every September I’d be upset (understatement of the year) when it was time for him to leave for London.

And after awhile, I’d be better. This was usually the middle of October. HAHAHA.

Things would be fine.. I’d be more used to the idea that he wasn’t around again. Until….. DECEMBER APPEARS.

Decembers have sucked for the past few years, simply because it’s my favourite month. Decembers are supposed to be all warm and fuzzy and slightly cool (weather-wise) and I guess, not having him around to share that with me just really really sucks.

Once the horrid December goes past, January is usually a little brighter.

In January, 3 months have since passed since he left! That seems like quite a feat, and makes things easier to bear.. because hey! That’s 3 months down from the 9 months it started with when he left in September.

And then February comes.
Februarys have been gloomy the past few years too, not because of Valentine’s Day please (he sends flowers! well, except this year HAHAHA).. but because it’s my birthday month and I am one of those people who loves celebrating their birthdays lah!

Random fact #23724: Did you know that I have never had a birthday spent with him before?

So yea, February gets a tad gloomy for me because like December and Christmas-time, I want to be able to spend it with him. It also doesn’t help that over the years, more and more people have gone abroad or gotten busier, and basically no one is free to spend my birthday with me. Oh well.

Things usually pick up after February because by March, I’ve pretty much gotten used to him being away all over again and have random outbursts of “COME HOME SOON!!!!” and “YAY YOU’RE COMING HOME SOON!!!” Haha.

Time usually seems to zip by from March to May, which is when he’s usually back for summer holidays.. but of course, never as fast as when he is around. Meh.

But you know, aside from these months when I seem to be more affected by my boyfriend being 10,000km away from me, there are random days when I just miss him more than usual.

Not any special day, just days when I’d just like him to be around.. just to talk, to share what happens in my life, to just…. be around.

I miss hugs and kisses, I miss holding hands, I miss his presence and I miss phone calls where I can hear him clearly which don’t cost 30cents a minute.

I read or hear or see people whining about how their other half is away for like a week, or busy for awhile or they haven’t met in like five days or he’s away in camp, and some days I want to scream at how…. unfair (for the lack of a better word) it all seems. I know everyone has their own battles to fight, and it’s just not the same.. but I still feel like stabbing people on those days anyway.

It hasn’t been easy, and when people ask me how I do it, I usually respond by telling them I cry a lot. HAHAHA.

I’m just glad he’s coming home soon.. and that I’m going to go over for a holiday before he comes back. Even so, I miss bear hugs tremendously.

COME HOME SOON!!!!!!!!

p/s: i had salad for dinner! but felt hungry an hour later. so i ate a chocolate bar.

silent contentment…

This was taken at my birthday dinner at Da Paolo’s on Saturday. I like how calm and serene it feels, and perhaps, that mood and photo effectively sums up how I felt by the end of my birthday.

Saturday turned out to be pretty great, which was rather unexpected, judging by my ranty emo outbursts the week that proceeded it.

Brunch with the ex-es at my favourite brunch place, incidentally introduced to me by them, was the perfect beginning to that day. Good food, and great company! It was nice catching up, and laughing at the various senses of humour that I’ve missed terribly.

I got a pedicure after that, with Charm and was pleasantly surprised at the expansion my now-favourite nails place has undergone. It’s now even more comfortable than before, and of course, there are few things that make me happier than getting my nails done.

Dinner was a quiet affair at Da Paolo’s with the ex-es, and Dawn and Clara who came down. My pasta was yummy yummy yummy! Even nicer than I’d remembered it to be, last I had it.

My Holland V walks are now complete, with the opening of Daily Scoop at Chip Bee Gardens!

Up in the Air with Clara after everyone left was awesome. When I last saw the trailer, I thought it was a typical Hollywood movie, and it totally confused me when it was mentioned that they were nominated for Best Picture!

Totally no regrets catching it – I was impressed with the movie. In fact, I really really love it! The editing and directing were both good, with a feel that was real and yet surreal at the same time. The script was good, with intelligent and funny dialogue. I hate slapstick, have I mentioned that before?

Acting was good as well, and George Clooney is just easy on the eyes. I adore his laugh lines! Sexy.. mm.

The movie was easy to digest and yet, so real but not in a sickeningly pretentious way.

Watching it, and being filled with the knowledge at the back of my head that I was going home to end my birthday with a conversation with Pinkie was just…. I don’t know how to put it. I just remember feeling totally content with my life at that point.

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*crosses fingers that everything goes as planned*

Also, I just checked aaaand.. Les Miserables extended their run and I’ll be able to catch it when I’m there!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! WHEE!

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On a sidenote, I really really want to eat sushi now because I am hungry and sushi is COLD.

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